On the way

Hmmmm today my friend Gosia almost killed me because of her stress at work. I thought it was because of the cauliflower i cooked for lunch.

Besides that we continued to ponder how to fix my future. Still not sure but pondering about it is enough for me to make better decisions later on.

Of and onn

Lately ive been having these on and off feelings about my current relationship. Even though touch measures were introduced to fix things with tha boy, I still seem to feel uncomfortable about the whole thing. Its as if the reason for my failed relationship is somehow beyond my grasp.

There are a couple of possibilities as to what it could be:

1. Could be sth to do with us - me feeling disrespected, neglected etc.

2. The pressure I get from my parents with the awkward suicidal dreams ive been having

3. The fact that i cant seem to pull my career together

4. Of the fact that my friends think the relationship is killing my desire to perform above avetrage

I think it's seroiusly time to start working things out before it is too late. Starting now!

Tired

Well yesterday went well. Ended up drinking 2 bottles of wine and marched up and down the street pretending to be a north korean soldier.

Woke up today not that perky any more. Having a hangover seemed to work as a perfect excuse not to study for Gosia - my partner in crime as of yesterday.

Now going home. I should have worked out today but didn't even lift a finger. Well, it seems ill have to postpone that till tomorrow.

Changes incoming

After some time pondering what's wrong with me, I discovered that I must be suffering from some sort of depressive moods, since I'm having those attacks of "i hate all people" sort of thing.

On the other hand, who wouldn't hate all people...

This is what happened. I went to Makro over the weekend to pick up some heavy weight stuff and was in a hurry to be back on time for a birthday party. Waiting at the cash register, the lady before me started arguing over some not sufficiently discounted t-shirt she wanted to buy which in my best guess was not to be discounted in the first place. She finished her big problem with the cash register lady and suddenly the people behind me say "my wife is pregnant, you have to let us go first or we will call the manager". And i'm like WTF!!!! Chosing between two wrongs, I picked the lesser evil and let them go. They get done and it turns out they don't have cash to pay for the f-ing thing. I was about to explode. After 10 mins they get done and I get to be served.
I leave the place and some beggar tags along. AAaaaargh!!!

The party was nice though :)

Marazm i dekadencja

Sie obudzilem sie.

Wczoraj widzialem sie z Kwiatkowska i tak porozmawialismy o zyciu i bardzo chcialem wszystkich bloggerow przeprosic ze tak nawalalem prez ostatni czas i to nie jest celowo. No moze troche bo ostatnio poczuwam sie jakbym mial sie zaraz do umieralni wyniesc i czekac jak mala trupia glowka zeby juz byl koniec koncow.

Ktos jeszcze sie zorientowal ze tu sie w ogole cos dzieje?

Party / slumber weekend

We had a party on Friday at our place.

I can really start seeing benefits of having a hugely miniature appartment - people who come in get crammed into a single space where there is nothing else to do but to interact with other people. As an effect - we got drunk - something I knew I was always good at :)

Saturday - 34C - dyyyyyyyyyyiiiing.
Sunday - 33C - dyyyyyyyyiiiiiiing
Monday - 30C - guess :P

3 2 1 RESTART

It's been almost 2 years since I came back from Seoul - still feeling the soul of Seoul inside of me, but it seems lots of things have taken on a different direction than I would ever expect.

Came out to my parents - mommy, daddy I'm gay but I still love you
- we still love you too but get out of our sight you fucking pervert

Tamdiam - a new chapter starts

At the moment I'm doing a phd in economics which is coming through veeeeery veeeeeery slowly and painfully, but things are slowly moving.

Moreover I'm living in Warsaw at the same place I used to for the whole time I was in the city. Got a bf who's staying with me - but shhhhh don't tell my parents about that :PPP

Started a company to see if I'm fit to work on my own or I should rather join a corporation and work like a miner :P

We'll see.

MTV Engine Room

I got a new show to follow. Haven't actually watched TV for over 2 years and now suddently I'm hooked to this show. 4 teams competing against each other in design challenges - really cool - i'm so impressed by the speed at which those guys work. Makes me wanna do stuff too. I guess my level is around Paint and formatting for Word but still - no pain no gain.

The engine website can be visited here

Going crazy

and addicted....

Niseko Japan in December

Yessss! Finally a dream come true - Niseko - here I come :)

Going there with 3 Korean snowboarders - hopefully it's gonna be fun as much as everybody is telling me. Well if you look at the pic ... how much cooler could it be?!?!

The most important activity

The most important activity every respected snowboarder has to do each year is ATTENDING THE AFTER SEASON SALE and purchasing something that he or she doesn't really need, but because it's cool or cheap just ending up buying it.

Well ... for me it's a backpack... and a deck. Well the deck is still work in progress - I'm hoping the financial crisis will even further distort the exchange rates so I can get my gear cheaper.

I've already made up my mind though - Burton T6 2008 model 156. Well I'm still emotionally attached to my Palmer but gotta adapt to changing market conditions. Oh and well I gotta figure out how i'm gonna haul the whole thing back home :)

Guys and girls just wanna have fun

in 강촌 riding bikes :)

On the weekend me and my friends took a car and drove off to 강촌 MT Town to ride bicycles. And during the trip I discovered that hiking and riding bicycles is the same word in Korean... I wonder why, cause those activities seemed to be completely unrelated to me. I prepared for hiking whereas my friends were ready for biking. Well in the end all was good, cause we did a bit of both.

Graduate Thesis done

OMG I can't believe I finished the damn thing in such a short time. Of course I would have not been able to do it if it hadn't been for my Polish friends who were my advisors, knowledge providers, logistics managers and other :) And my mom who actually took the time to feed me and make sure I work instead of going drinking with everyone. The result - I haven't seen it but I heard it does look like a book :) - 127 pages :) well a little book, novel :)



The final countdown is on. 6th November 2008, at 1 PM - defense :)

Woosh

Phew, it's been a while since I've revisited to write my own thing. Actually not much in terms of exciting things had been going on. Mostly due to the fact that school's been draining all the energy I have not leaving much for free time. I've been struggling to get a good haircut in Seoul - so far no luck, therefore this time I'm a bit affraid to go cause I need to look good by November. Ahhh november is the month I'm most seriously looking forward.

1. I'M GRADUATING IN NOVEMBER
2. PANI MAGDALENA WILL COME TO SEOUL!!!
3. MIDTERMS WILL BE OVER

And all other things that would happen but I have no idea about them right now. Can't wait :)

Beach

Ahh I miss the beach. Wanna come back to the sea!!! Seoul's fine but...

Lord Biach

I love how Koreans name their places to make them sound cool. How would you like a stay at the "LORD BIACH"? :) Btw. istn't it a great view from the window?

Busan

And I did it again. 1 day rest and I was off again - this time to see the sea in Busan - Korea's premier summer vacation spot on the penninsula. Takes 3 hours by KTX - considerably shorter than the 12 hours by train we gotta suffer from Hel to Katowice. A friend picked me up from the station and the vacation could start :)

Beach



Wine and beach


Amazing views

Ok enough complaining. On a positive note, I did have a good time in Poland especially cause of family and friends. Warsaw became a beautiful city once parts of it got renewed - I really felt proud.

I feel sorry cause I kinda did not have a chance to go out much. Just a beer here or there and the rest was just my dates with the screen. This month didn't even have days of the week - all was based on "How many pages do I have to write today". That was the purpose though so it was expected to be like that.

Next time I'll spend time with everybody! And next time is hopefully soon! Unfortunately not many people in Poland like soju…. Hmm I should find another universal gift.

Damn Warsaw airport

Okecie airport - the pride and glory of Poland …. is no better than a huge central station in a third world country. I officially declare the place as the world's worst place. A couple of weeks ago I went to that airport to pick up a friend. I went to the expected arrival place only to find an A4 sized piece of paper with a sentence saying "Wszystkie przyloty na terminal 2" - hehe if you're not a Polish speaker - I guess you just need to figure this one out on your own, cause no English was available anywhere.

At terminal 2 which fortunately is not that far - 7 mins on foot I have spotted a first monitor and something very worrying - that the plane is scheduled to arrive at terminal 1. Off to terminal 1. At T1, after 20 mins and no apparent sign of ppl coming out of the gates, I found out, that "it does not mean that the plane is arriving at T1 if on the monitors it says T1 and I should be waiting at T2". That was already an hour past her arrival. In the end I missed the welcoming, my friend went home and we had to catch up 2 days later.

That's not all though. Today I spent an hour trying to check-in my luggage. Finally I got to the business class desk, which for no apparent reason was serving regular customers. I put my luggage on the belt, the lady did the usual thing and the luggage got stuck further down the counters. So the lady at the counter (business class mind you) tells me to go behind her counter where the people normally are not even allowed and asks me to adjust the luggage myself … cause it's my luggage that's stuck and apparently it's my problem.

In the end I didn't even have time to properly talk with my mom, I was stressed out, cause boarding was closing in 10 minutes and I still have not even entered the airport zone. I get to the gate and gotta still wait half an hour and on the plane they announce a 40 minute delay. WHAT THE FUCK?

Plane again

Aaand here we go again. Having not had Internet access for over 2 weeks, I feel like I've missed out on a very important part of my existence. Most of it was due to the damn paper I've been trying to finish for over a month now.

I guess I can't really complain - I have the best parents in the world. Dad leased out mom to me, so that she could help me out with house chores while I do the creative part. At the end she started to read what I had written, feedback and correct the paper. I think I would not have managed without her help. Heh I think I should include a credits page to acknowledge the people who have contributed:

Thesis credits list

Mom - grammar, spelling and making sure my sentences make sense
Misiu Misiu - administration, printing and delivery
Kinkowa - sampling and saying you can make it
Babra - intelligence support
Banachowa - telling me they're closing the library and copying
Sexyjkk - translation

Now I'm on the plane again - heading back to Korea to finish things up. The paper is done, but as my friend (greetings Ryba) - 90% of the thesis takes 90% of the needed time. The remaining 10% of the thesis take another 90% of the time. Hence I'm still doing it and it seems like it’s a never-ending story.

Nyways, should finish quick.